Have you ever just wanted to skip say...6 months of you life? That is me right now. 144 days until I graduate. I can not wait. People always say, "Oh you will miss it when your gone" or "Don't try and grow up so fast Kristin"

I thought they knew me...

I guess not.

I feel numb, like I should be somewhere *cough* Northalnd *cough* but I am here.

In a urb of Chicago.

Where houses look the same, and my school has awards in everything (<- no joke) It is boring. I want a life full of.....adventure. A life that I will not regret. A friend of my best friend/cousin died on Thursday. He was 15. Makes you think doesn't it. That shit does happen here. And that kind of scares me. Makes me realize how short life really is. And how we should live it to the fullest because we never know when our time will be up. Then I get pissed off because people are morons. And immature. Hearing "Hey! did you hear about the dead kid?" and "You know he made a bomb right?" was not on my list of things to do that Friday. I will be honest. I cried. I couldn't take how horrible people could be. What if it was their friend you know? Here is a poem I wrote for the family of Steven Taylor. ---------
Our Time
In Memory of Steven Taylor

death is
the one common thread that humankind cannot defeat
self inflicted, forced, or natural
it hurts


people mourn
money is burned
when children force the hand of nature,
it seems more… depressing


death is natural
but death is still
sad


we should celebrate life,
not mourn death
we should not be saying, “I am sorry”
we should be saying, “He lived a beautiful life
and will always be in my heart”


we should not waste these short lives we were given
we should live a life without regret
without fear of loss


times of mourning bring out the strange
people hug
family is missed
friends tell tales
yet that feeling of love is more than recognizable


bring smiles fourth
remember the ‘good times’
and live
because you never know
when it will be your time
to become part of the stars

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Thanks.
Emotions are weird.
(Please pray for the Taylor Family)
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xoxo
kristin